back to the drawing board

Well, it turns out our first IVF cycle failed. I'm very happy it's not another miscarriage, but it's not over and I'm freaked. I was all fine and dandy about moving on. A failed IVF cycle is not a miscarriage, there was no implantation, but to some extent, ineed to go through this again. UGH.

We had a meeting with the RE(last post on the page) today. She explained that they had no idea why this didn't work and how everything looked great. (yeah, thanks, that makes me feel better). I just wasted my two best fertilized embryos and I'm not pregnant. We have absolutely no idea why you can't get and stay pregnant nor do we have any idea why this, everything went perfectly IVF cycle, didn't work for you either. There is absolutely no medical reason why you can't get and stay pregnant, even though we are doctors and specialists, but yeah, we don't know.

She also gave us our options, a Frozen embryo cycle or going through a whole new fresh cycle like I just did. Injections, pills, retrieval, transfer and all the goodness. UGH. We decided that we would go with a frozen cycle and pay out of pocket if it was $4000 or lower. The results have a lower chance because of the thawing and everything else but it's less on me physically. We just figure it's worth it. The end result would all be worth it. It turns out that it costs $3900, so that made the decision for us. Come to find out that Blue Cross Blue Shield only covers 2 attempts, which we knew, BUT means whether we pay or they pay. 2 Attempts are two attempts no matter what. Are you EFFING Kidding me!!!!!!! If I pay that should make no difference in what insurance covers. This is so EFFING rickydiculous!!!! I hate insurance. Don't get me wrong, I know that there are some people that have no coverage at all and that really blows, especially since it's mandated in so many states these days. But come on. If I want to pay, I should be able to pay and you can get the next one, DAMNIT!!

Well, since that is the case, I guess we move on to another fresh cycle. I will do a month of BCP (oh, that's birth control pills for those not in TTC land(Trying To Conceive)). And, then the cycle after that will be the everything that I have just been through. I'm tired and it's a lot
but it's the end result that is all worth it.

For now, I'm just getting DRUNK.

Infertility SUCKS!

Jan- you're a sweetie! Thanks for stopping in and checking on me.

liz-it's lovely to hear from you again! KIT

zenchick-thanks for the thoughts, hope that you are well

Snay-you too, thanks for lookin' out.

angel-I know that you are out there. Thank You!